Although no one has demanded that I get one, I felt it's about time I actually do a get a new hobby. I've had numerous hobbies growing up, mostly consisting of arts & crafts, but I haven't had a real hobby in about a year and I miss it. Currently my time consists of working full-time, working out a few days a week, hanging out with my boyfriend and friends, and when I'm flying solo it's pretty much reading or watching TV (I'm not the biggest fan of the latter unless it's a show I'm a huge fan of.) So, I decided I need to get a hobby to fill that void in my life. Not to mention, I'm tired of spending my free time mostly just doing something around the house.
I may consider myself a home body a lot, but I really enjoy being out and about and not always being cooped up. Although I've always known this about myself, I really realized it on vacation last week. It's like when I was out and about, even just driving around seeing the random sights and surrounding of different towns within California, I was at my happiest on vacation. Being stuck in my hotel room for longer than to just sleep and shower was almost hair pulling. I'm not saying relaxing some wasn't needed and appreciated, but I much preferred enjoying life and to me that doesn't consist of watching TV or just sitting a room.
Looking back at this concept, I realized that my new hobby should be something that doesn't force me to spend more time indoors. So, I thought about things I enjoy doing that don't involve me relying on anyone else, but that also doesn't force me to suddenly become a loner in order to enjoy my hobby. That's when it hit me...photography! I used to carry my camera around with me everywhere so that I wouldn't miss a moment of anything fun or exciting happening. The problem was that many of the people I used to hangout with back in the day dreaded that I had my camera with. It was like they didn't want moments of their lives caught on film. If you look back at my old photo albums, I have pictures of everything from special moments (birthdays, graduations, parties, etc.) to tons of pictures of us just enjoying life together not doing anything special. Nowadays though, it's like if it's not a brutally special occasion, I don't bother even bringing my camera along because of all those years of having friends hide from the camera caused me to assume people hate cameras. Hell, most special occasions that I have brought my camera along to, it never even got used just to avoid what I thought would be an awkward situation for some people. I miss having pictures galore though of just living life. It doesn't have to be of people, hell it could be sights or cool plants or animals I come across, even interesting things I see out running errands. I realize now that pictures don't have to only be of people in posed moments. They can be of anything and everything.
With that realization, I decided that I want to get into photography as a hobby. I realize that when you get heavily into it, it can be a very expensive hobby since really good cameras aren't cheap and all the accessories you need can quite pricey, but for right now, I'd be a beginner. The camera I currently have will be fine for me to start with. As I get more into the hobby, if I love it as much as I think I will, I can always invest in a shnazzy camera later. For now though, my only investment into this hobby was that today I ordered off of Amazon.com a couple of those "Photography for Dummies" books. One helps understand what digital cameras are capable of (I'm totally ignorant to everything my simple camera can do, let alone what a fancy camera can do). The other book actually helps guide you to notice photographic moments and how to appropriately catch them with the right camera settings, then how to fix and correct pictures as needed with programs on the computer. It was about $40 spent, but well worth learning something new. I should have the books later this week and hopefully I can start to fill my brain with new knowledge that I look forward to learning. I do realize that books can't teach me everything, but I'm willing to learn with trial and error doing hands on work. Not to mention, it helps that one of my close friends is a Photographer and I'm sure she will be happy to guide me with any questions I have.
I don't plan on making this a profession since I did spend ridiculous amounts of money going to school to get my degree in Criminal Justice, but I think this will be a fun hobby that will also allow me to have memories for life in the form of a photograph. Not to mention, I'm tired of having so many moments in my life that I regret having a picture of to be a physical memory. I've seen some fun, awesome, and interesting things, but the only memories I have of them are whatever my brain allows me to remember. I like the idea of being able to look at a photograph more and having that memory jogged that way. Not to mention, pictures don't lie and they are an awesome way to have a memory remembered exactly as it really was and not as our brains morphed into being remembered.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Vacation Recap
I have officially been back from vacation for a few days already, but my body clock is still 2 hours behind Chicago time (we went to California) and getting myself back in the groove of things hasn't been easy. So, here's a late recap of vacation.
Tuesday 7/12/11 - We landed at LAX airport and went to pick up our car rental just to find out that Thrifty fucked up. They booked our rental, but didn't take out the payment made at an amazing deal that was found at the time of booking the rental back in April. So, Thrifty demanded we had to pay for the car then and the final total ended up being more than $200 more than we originally booked it at. Total bullshit! We basically said screw them and took a cab to our hotel to check-in and get situated. After some internet searching and phone calls (not on my part, so I can't take any credit for it) a rental was found that would be available to us by 9:00am the following morning and at an amazing deal with no catches. Perfect! The day was working in our favor. Since we were without a car that first day, we hoofed it for lunch and dinner and just took it easy by the pool.
Wednesday 7/13/11 - We picked up our car early in the morning and grabbed an AWESOME breakfast immediately afterwards. We then made a Target run (yes, even on vacation Target is amazing) and then cruised around a bit and ended up hitting up Santa Monica Pier. We walked around there, took in the beautiful beach view, and then hit up Yummy Cupcakes to get some delish and unique cupcakes. We then hit up our hotel, had some chill out time by the pool, and ended it with dinner at this amazing restaurant called Gladstone's in Malibu where we ate the best seafood I have ever had and our table had an ocean view. That was one of those moments that you want to freeze in time.
Thursday 7/14/11 - This day we pretty much took it easy. My boyfriend and I cruised around a little by the beach to check out the beautiful scenery and afterwards made it a lazy pool day. Later that night we all hit up a pretty yummy Mexican restaurant. I don't know if it could be considered "authentic" since it tasted awfully similar to the Mexican restraurants here in Chicago (I've been told by some California friends that have had Mexican here in the Chi that we're too far from the border to have truely authentic Mexican food), but it was still good and kept me full and satisified.
Friday 7/15/11 - We woke up early, had breakfast and hit up Knott's Berry Farm. So much fun! It was pretty damn hot, but we did some fun shopping around the park (we even picked up homemade jam) and rode on a few rides. I even had funnel cake! This was by far the best part of the amusement park. I'm not saying I didn't have a blast the rest of the day, but funnel cake is like this fatty amazing goodness that words can not describe. Definitely my favorite part! After Knott's Berry, we went on a random whim and hit up this Body Art Expo. It was a completely out of the air sort of idea, but it was fun. A lot of interesting people there. 3 out of 4 of us got inked there (I got a sea turtle on my foot!), with the exception of my boyfriend. We were there until about close, which was at 11:00pm and then went for a very late dinner. Granted, it was fast food, but it was still dinner. Besides, not much is open that late on a weeknight.
Saturday 7/16/11 - This was the day we hit up San Diego Zoo! I LOVED it! Definitely the best zoo I have ever been to. It was no only HUGE, but it had some more unique animals than some of the zoos in our area. The sad news is that my camera's battery died only like a quarter of the way through the zoo, so I had to use my boyfriend's camera to take the remaining pictures. Not that there is anything wrong with his camera, but he's bad about uploading pictures to look back at later. I may have to convince him to make an exception for me on this one. We did so much walking on this day though that my feet were killing me and my calves were sore and had that charlie horse feeling (you all know what I'm talking about). I accepted the pain though because the zoo was a blast and I'm a huge animal lover, so it was a great day for me. If you've never been and decide to go, where comfy shoes and expect to do a lot of steep hill walking. After the zoo we had a simple dinner at the restaurant attached to our hotel and then got some shut eye after the long day of walking.
Sunday 7/18/11 - We woke up and got lunch (slept in too late for breakfast) and then hit up Target again (Sorry, this store is awesome!). We headed back to the hotel for a lazy day and later that evening my boyfriend and I got dinner with 2 of our good buddies that live in California. It was an awesome restaurant with yummy cocktails (I got a Bikini Tini...no joke!), delish food, and amazing desserts. The view was to die for as well. Another ocean view! So beautiful! We ended up being there for almost 4 hours just talking and catching up. I had a blast!
Monday 7/19/11 - Our last and final day in California. We went out for breakfast and afterwards filled the rental with gas and dropped it off. We took a cab to LAX and ended having to hangout there for about 5 hours. Our flight was at 5:45pm and we got there shortly after noon. We pretty much just checked out the stores at the airport and strolled around. We eventually grabbed dinner there and then relaxed in the terminal for a bit prior boarding and heading home. We didn't get back to Chicago until almost midnight, which was exhausting.
All in all, we hit some speed bumps on vacation, but overall I had a blast and saying it was both fun and relaxing is an understatement. I loved checking out so much of the different areas withing the southern part of California and the weather was perfect. Coming back to Chicago to temperatures that were over 100 degrees with the humidity was pretty shocking, but I'd rather it be hot than cold, so I'll take it. I'm still relaxed from vacation and that's after being back to work for 2 days already. I guess that's a sign that vacation did exactly what it was supposed to do...relax me. =)
Oh...since I can't find the cable for my camera, I couldn't upload any of the pictures. I ordered a new cord and hopefully it will be in soon. Once I get it, I will try to post some pictures...granted I figure out how to that on here. LOL!
Tuesday 7/12/11 - We landed at LAX airport and went to pick up our car rental just to find out that Thrifty fucked up. They booked our rental, but didn't take out the payment made at an amazing deal that was found at the time of booking the rental back in April. So, Thrifty demanded we had to pay for the car then and the final total ended up being more than $200 more than we originally booked it at. Total bullshit! We basically said screw them and took a cab to our hotel to check-in and get situated. After some internet searching and phone calls (not on my part, so I can't take any credit for it) a rental was found that would be available to us by 9:00am the following morning and at an amazing deal with no catches. Perfect! The day was working in our favor. Since we were without a car that first day, we hoofed it for lunch and dinner and just took it easy by the pool.
Wednesday 7/13/11 - We picked up our car early in the morning and grabbed an AWESOME breakfast immediately afterwards. We then made a Target run (yes, even on vacation Target is amazing) and then cruised around a bit and ended up hitting up Santa Monica Pier. We walked around there, took in the beautiful beach view, and then hit up Yummy Cupcakes to get some delish and unique cupcakes. We then hit up our hotel, had some chill out time by the pool, and ended it with dinner at this amazing restaurant called Gladstone's in Malibu where we ate the best seafood I have ever had and our table had an ocean view. That was one of those moments that you want to freeze in time.
Thursday 7/14/11 - This day we pretty much took it easy. My boyfriend and I cruised around a little by the beach to check out the beautiful scenery and afterwards made it a lazy pool day. Later that night we all hit up a pretty yummy Mexican restaurant. I don't know if it could be considered "authentic" since it tasted awfully similar to the Mexican restraurants here in Chicago (I've been told by some California friends that have had Mexican here in the Chi that we're too far from the border to have truely authentic Mexican food), but it was still good and kept me full and satisified.
Friday 7/15/11 - We woke up early, had breakfast and hit up Knott's Berry Farm. So much fun! It was pretty damn hot, but we did some fun shopping around the park (we even picked up homemade jam) and rode on a few rides. I even had funnel cake! This was by far the best part of the amusement park. I'm not saying I didn't have a blast the rest of the day, but funnel cake is like this fatty amazing goodness that words can not describe. Definitely my favorite part! After Knott's Berry, we went on a random whim and hit up this Body Art Expo. It was a completely out of the air sort of idea, but it was fun. A lot of interesting people there. 3 out of 4 of us got inked there (I got a sea turtle on my foot!), with the exception of my boyfriend. We were there until about close, which was at 11:00pm and then went for a very late dinner. Granted, it was fast food, but it was still dinner. Besides, not much is open that late on a weeknight.
Saturday 7/16/11 - This was the day we hit up San Diego Zoo! I LOVED it! Definitely the best zoo I have ever been to. It was no only HUGE, but it had some more unique animals than some of the zoos in our area. The sad news is that my camera's battery died only like a quarter of the way through the zoo, so I had to use my boyfriend's camera to take the remaining pictures. Not that there is anything wrong with his camera, but he's bad about uploading pictures to look back at later. I may have to convince him to make an exception for me on this one. We did so much walking on this day though that my feet were killing me and my calves were sore and had that charlie horse feeling (you all know what I'm talking about). I accepted the pain though because the zoo was a blast and I'm a huge animal lover, so it was a great day for me. If you've never been and decide to go, where comfy shoes and expect to do a lot of steep hill walking. After the zoo we had a simple dinner at the restaurant attached to our hotel and then got some shut eye after the long day of walking.
Sunday 7/18/11 - We woke up and got lunch (slept in too late for breakfast) and then hit up Target again (Sorry, this store is awesome!). We headed back to the hotel for a lazy day and later that evening my boyfriend and I got dinner with 2 of our good buddies that live in California. It was an awesome restaurant with yummy cocktails (I got a Bikini Tini...no joke!), delish food, and amazing desserts. The view was to die for as well. Another ocean view! So beautiful! We ended up being there for almost 4 hours just talking and catching up. I had a blast!
Monday 7/19/11 - Our last and final day in California. We went out for breakfast and afterwards filled the rental with gas and dropped it off. We took a cab to LAX and ended having to hangout there for about 5 hours. Our flight was at 5:45pm and we got there shortly after noon. We pretty much just checked out the stores at the airport and strolled around. We eventually grabbed dinner there and then relaxed in the terminal for a bit prior boarding and heading home. We didn't get back to Chicago until almost midnight, which was exhausting.
All in all, we hit some speed bumps on vacation, but overall I had a blast and saying it was both fun and relaxing is an understatement. I loved checking out so much of the different areas withing the southern part of California and the weather was perfect. Coming back to Chicago to temperatures that were over 100 degrees with the humidity was pretty shocking, but I'd rather it be hot than cold, so I'll take it. I'm still relaxed from vacation and that's after being back to work for 2 days already. I guess that's a sign that vacation did exactly what it was supposed to do...relax me. =)
Oh...since I can't find the cable for my camera, I couldn't upload any of the pictures. I ordered a new cord and hopefully it will be in soon. Once I get it, I will try to post some pictures...granted I figure out how to that on here. LOL!
Monday, July 11, 2011
Reading...it's an expensive habit.
Ever since I stopped playing WoW (World of Warcraft for my non-gamer readers), I decided to get back into reading. It was something I always loved doing, but stopped doing because I got hooked on gaming. I cancelled my WoW account due to losing interest in the game and also to save money (it was about $16.00/month to play). So, I cancel my account and start reading the books I've had for awhile that I never got around to reading.
Since I used to do A LOT of gaming, I had A LOT of time to read. Needless to say, I got all caught up with reading those books that I had. Now it was time to get some new books, so I did that. I took advantage of the closeout sale that Borders was having when they closed down and I now had a bunch of new books to read. Well, again, I finished them. So, I bought more books (this time not on discount) and again, I'm almost done reading them. Ugh! I'm starting to think that my new addiction to reading books it a more expensive habit than my gaming addiction used to be.
When I was gaming it was about $16.00/month habit, but now with having to keep up with buying new books, I'm spending between $5.00-$8.00 per book and I go through a book about once a week (give or take depending on how long & interesting the book is). I think my book habit is worse than my gaming habit. Too bad I can't force myself to get back into playing WoW, because at least that addiction was cheaper.
Since I used to do A LOT of gaming, I had A LOT of time to read. Needless to say, I got all caught up with reading those books that I had. Now it was time to get some new books, so I did that. I took advantage of the closeout sale that Borders was having when they closed down and I now had a bunch of new books to read. Well, again, I finished them. So, I bought more books (this time not on discount) and again, I'm almost done reading them. Ugh! I'm starting to think that my new addiction to reading books it a more expensive habit than my gaming addiction used to be.
When I was gaming it was about $16.00/month habit, but now with having to keep up with buying new books, I'm spending between $5.00-$8.00 per book and I go through a book about once a week (give or take depending on how long & interesting the book is). I think my book habit is worse than my gaming habit. Too bad I can't force myself to get back into playing WoW, because at least that addiction was cheaper.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Packed for vacation....CHECK!
I'm offically all packed up for vacation. Granted, we don't leave until Tuesday, but I wanted to get it done and over with because, let's face it, packing sucks. It's probably the only thing I don't enjoy about vacations.
It's like you have to decide the clothes you want to bring and make sure they fit the different things you have planned and then some for those spontaneous plans. So, I did that. Then, of course, I had to make sure I had the proper shoes packed. For me it was one pair of gym shoes for those long walking days (zoo, amusement parks, etc.) and flip flops of assorted colors. Yes, gym shoes and flip flops are all I need.
Then it came time to make sure I had all the necessary hygiene products (shampoo, conditioner, body wash, deodorant, toothbrush, etc.), so I packed all those up and made sure I had them put somewhere in my suitcase easily accessable for security to check. Granted, I'm checking in my luggage, it's not a carry-on, but I still wanted to make sure they were accessible due to the whole liquid thing with airlines. Along with those things, I made sure I had my make-up packed for those days when you want that evening look and also my necessary hair care needs (brushes, comb, hairdryer, etc.). I realize that most hotels have hairdryers already in there, but I only dry my hair with that attachment that straightens my hair and I've never seen those in a hotel. So, I pack my own.
I made sure to have my camera battery fully charged and my camera packed and ready for lots of use. I have a book packed for reading on the long flight, and I even laid out my clothes to wear the day of my trip. I wanted to be comfortable, but still cute for whatever plans lay ahead the day we land. The only thing I still have to pack are those little last minute items like my phone charger (which I'll still use prior to Tuesday). Other than that, I'm packed and ready to go.
I can't believe that in 2 days I'll be in California. I'm so psyched and it will definitely beat the rainy weather we're due to have here for the first few days we're gone.
It's like you have to decide the clothes you want to bring and make sure they fit the different things you have planned and then some for those spontaneous plans. So, I did that. Then, of course, I had to make sure I had the proper shoes packed. For me it was one pair of gym shoes for those long walking days (zoo, amusement parks, etc.) and flip flops of assorted colors. Yes, gym shoes and flip flops are all I need.
Then it came time to make sure I had all the necessary hygiene products (shampoo, conditioner, body wash, deodorant, toothbrush, etc.), so I packed all those up and made sure I had them put somewhere in my suitcase easily accessable for security to check. Granted, I'm checking in my luggage, it's not a carry-on, but I still wanted to make sure they were accessible due to the whole liquid thing with airlines. Along with those things, I made sure I had my make-up packed for those days when you want that evening look and also my necessary hair care needs (brushes, comb, hairdryer, etc.). I realize that most hotels have hairdryers already in there, but I only dry my hair with that attachment that straightens my hair and I've never seen those in a hotel. So, I pack my own.
I made sure to have my camera battery fully charged and my camera packed and ready for lots of use. I have a book packed for reading on the long flight, and I even laid out my clothes to wear the day of my trip. I wanted to be comfortable, but still cute for whatever plans lay ahead the day we land. The only thing I still have to pack are those little last minute items like my phone charger (which I'll still use prior to Tuesday). Other than that, I'm packed and ready to go.
I can't believe that in 2 days I'll be in California. I'm so psyched and it will definitely beat the rainy weather we're due to have here for the first few days we're gone.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Too much energy!
Today I feel like I have the energy to do cart wheels and run around like a kid outside. It's entirely energy due to a natural high (I promise, it's a NATURAL high).
Yesterday I got my braces off (FINALLY!!!) and my self esteem instantly went up. It's like not looking in the mirror and seeing this metal mouth instantly made me feel prettier. I went from being disgusted at my smile because I refused to open my mouth to suddenly not being able to stop smiling because I feel like I have a beautiful smile again. Granted I have to go after work today to pick up my retainer, but that's totally doable, especially because I think it's only going to need to be worn at night when I go to sleep (at least that's how they made it sound).
Then today I've gotten compliments left and right about my weight loss. I'm at 48 pounds lost so far as of this morning, which is still 2 pounds away from my pre-vacation goal, but it's still an amazing feel to be so close. I've had people tell me how great I'm looking with my weight loss and it's another boost to that self esteem that already was boosted yesterday after my braces were removed. I love feeling pretty!
Of course, last but far from least, there is the fact that in just 4 1/2 hours I'm officially on vacation and away from work for 11 days. I absolutely can not wait! Everyone knows I hate my job more than any other job I have ever had in my life, so this 11 day vacation away from here has me beyond giddy. I'm like on cloud 9 just thinking about it. This weekend I have all my pampering planned (haircut, eyebrows threaded, manicure, & pedicure) and then on Tuesday I fly out to California for 7 days. Sooooo excited! Weeeeeee!!!!!
I think I'm also so full of energy and happy because I know that after I get back from vacation I can start job hunting. Granted, I could have been job hunting for awhile already, but not many jobs appreciate you accepting a new job and then telling them that you need an 11 day vacation. So, to avoid that being a brick wall to my job hunting progression, I figured I would put it on hold until after I get back from vacation and have the availability to apply for jobs without something scheduled getting in the way.
All around, this is a good day and I see the next 11 days being amazing. I can't wait for 4:30 to get here when my freedom begins. Sooooo giddy!
Yesterday I got my braces off (FINALLY!!!) and my self esteem instantly went up. It's like not looking in the mirror and seeing this metal mouth instantly made me feel prettier. I went from being disgusted at my smile because I refused to open my mouth to suddenly not being able to stop smiling because I feel like I have a beautiful smile again. Granted I have to go after work today to pick up my retainer, but that's totally doable, especially because I think it's only going to need to be worn at night when I go to sleep (at least that's how they made it sound).
Then today I've gotten compliments left and right about my weight loss. I'm at 48 pounds lost so far as of this morning, which is still 2 pounds away from my pre-vacation goal, but it's still an amazing feel to be so close. I've had people tell me how great I'm looking with my weight loss and it's another boost to that self esteem that already was boosted yesterday after my braces were removed. I love feeling pretty!
Of course, last but far from least, there is the fact that in just 4 1/2 hours I'm officially on vacation and away from work for 11 days. I absolutely can not wait! Everyone knows I hate my job more than any other job I have ever had in my life, so this 11 day vacation away from here has me beyond giddy. I'm like on cloud 9 just thinking about it. This weekend I have all my pampering planned (haircut, eyebrows threaded, manicure, & pedicure) and then on Tuesday I fly out to California for 7 days. Sooooo excited! Weeeeeee!!!!!
I think I'm also so full of energy and happy because I know that after I get back from vacation I can start job hunting. Granted, I could have been job hunting for awhile already, but not many jobs appreciate you accepting a new job and then telling them that you need an 11 day vacation. So, to avoid that being a brick wall to my job hunting progression, I figured I would put it on hold until after I get back from vacation and have the availability to apply for jobs without something scheduled getting in the way.
All around, this is a good day and I see the next 11 days being amazing. I can't wait for 4:30 to get here when my freedom begins. Sooooo giddy!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Countdown to freedom!
I only have 2 1/2 more days of work and then I'm free from my personal office hell for 11 days. Woohoo! I work a full day tomorrow and Friday and then only a half day on Thursday since I'm finally getting my braces removed. Yay! I've been waiting for this day for a long time and now that I've gone 2 years with these hellish things on my teeth, I'm looking forward to reintroducing gum into my life. Oh gum, how I've missed you. We will be reunited in just a couple days.
I'm hoping this work week goes by quickly though, not just because of vacation being right around the corner, but also because we already have one person on vacation causing more work to come our way than usual. Not to mention, this week they will be billing at work, which is always stressful on those of us responsible to get everything entered on time so that billing is possible. Then lastly, I have to make sure my work is up to date by the time I leave on Friday at 4:30 to ensure the other girls covering my work load while I'm off aren't doing extra work than necessary. It's going to be a busy 2 1/2 days for me, so I'm hoping that makes the time fly by. I'm sure it will since it seems the busier I am, the quicker time goes by, but I'm definitely not going to complain about that. This is a good thing.
I'm seriously so giddy to know I'm this close to vacation. Let the countdown begin!
I'm hoping this work week goes by quickly though, not just because of vacation being right around the corner, but also because we already have one person on vacation causing more work to come our way than usual. Not to mention, this week they will be billing at work, which is always stressful on those of us responsible to get everything entered on time so that billing is possible. Then lastly, I have to make sure my work is up to date by the time I leave on Friday at 4:30 to ensure the other girls covering my work load while I'm off aren't doing extra work than necessary. It's going to be a busy 2 1/2 days for me, so I'm hoping that makes the time fly by. I'm sure it will since it seems the busier I am, the quicker time goes by, but I'm definitely not going to complain about that. This is a good thing.
I'm seriously so giddy to know I'm this close to vacation. Let the countdown begin!
Monday, July 4, 2011
The ugly before the beauty.
In preparation before vacation, I have a bunch of beauty related things to do. I have to get my eyebrows threaded, I have a hair appointment for a much needed summer cut, and I'll be getting a mani/pedi done to ensure that my feet don't look terrible in flip flops and that my hands are pretty to look at. Looking at that list just exictes me because I know how beautiful I will feel afterwards. The key word there is "afterwords".
Since I don't want to get any of these things done too early due to hair growing out and nail polish chipping, I'm waiting until the last few days before I leave to start my beautifying process. In the mean time though, I feel like a grizzly, freakish toed, slob. I'm literally walking around with the thoughts in my head when people look at me like, "Yeah, I know my eyebrows are looking scraggly, don't judge!" or "Stop looking at my toes, I already know I shouldn't be wearing my flip flops yet!". As for my hair, don't get me started. It's not super long, but I have those natural waves in my hair and unless I take the time to blowdry or flat iron it straight, they give my hair this puffy uneven look. And let's face it, it's too hot to have a hot blowdryer being pointed at my head for almost 30 minutes. My hair is crazy I tell you! So, ponytails have been my best friend until I get my hair cut. I think my fingernails are the only one that don't bother be pre-mani. My nails are a little uneven, but that's nothing a file can't take care of.
It's funny all the things us women will do to prepare ourselves to be beautiful for specific occasions or events. I find it even funnier what we go through to look beautiful. Let's face it, being threaded or waxed isn't exactly a pleasant feeling. It's not terrible pain by any means, but it's not pleasant either.
I know that there are many women who say that they don't care what people think, but I think they do. I'm one of the first people to usually not care what other people think because most of the people you come across you will probably never meet again, but when I'm going somewhere that's familiar, I think I definitely care about what other people think. It's like there's the fear that I have to make a good impression on someone that doesn't need impressing. Maybe that's the typical mindset of many women and that's why we put ourselves through these beauty processes. One is so that we feel pretty, but I honestly believe the other is to impress those around us. No matter how much some of us may not care what other people think, maybe deep down we're all a little vain, huh?
Since I don't want to get any of these things done too early due to hair growing out and nail polish chipping, I'm waiting until the last few days before I leave to start my beautifying process. In the mean time though, I feel like a grizzly, freakish toed, slob. I'm literally walking around with the thoughts in my head when people look at me like, "Yeah, I know my eyebrows are looking scraggly, don't judge!" or "Stop looking at my toes, I already know I shouldn't be wearing my flip flops yet!". As for my hair, don't get me started. It's not super long, but I have those natural waves in my hair and unless I take the time to blowdry or flat iron it straight, they give my hair this puffy uneven look. And let's face it, it's too hot to have a hot blowdryer being pointed at my head for almost 30 minutes. My hair is crazy I tell you! So, ponytails have been my best friend until I get my hair cut. I think my fingernails are the only one that don't bother be pre-mani. My nails are a little uneven, but that's nothing a file can't take care of.
It's funny all the things us women will do to prepare ourselves to be beautiful for specific occasions or events. I find it even funnier what we go through to look beautiful. Let's face it, being threaded or waxed isn't exactly a pleasant feeling. It's not terrible pain by any means, but it's not pleasant either.
I know that there are many women who say that they don't care what people think, but I think they do. I'm one of the first people to usually not care what other people think because most of the people you come across you will probably never meet again, but when I'm going somewhere that's familiar, I think I definitely care about what other people think. It's like there's the fear that I have to make a good impression on someone that doesn't need impressing. Maybe that's the typical mindset of many women and that's why we put ourselves through these beauty processes. One is so that we feel pretty, but I honestly believe the other is to impress those around us. No matter how much some of us may not care what other people think, maybe deep down we're all a little vain, huh?
Saturday, July 2, 2011
New obsession meets old.
For anyone that knows me, they know I'm heavily into having this morbid facination with murders. No, I don't condone what they do, but for many years I've been into the whole criminal justice thing. I mean, I did get my Bachelor's degree in it after all. The whole concept of the system facinates me, but it seems like the crime that keeps me the most facinated is homicide. It's like it's interesting to try to get in the minds of these sick assholes.
I've been reading true crime books about murders and serial killers for years. Hell, I even wrote a long research paper on Ted Bundy when I was in college. Currently my favorite true crime author is Ann Rule. Not only is she an amazing author, but she's exceptionally detailed on every aspect of the cases she writes about. You can almost mentally picture the crime scene, the courtroom, the whole story is just vivid. Not to mention, she mentions things in gruesome detail, which I happen to enjoy. Call me sick if you will, but it's a facination of mine.
Maybe I find the whole concept of murders interesting because my dream job is to be a detective in a homicide unit of a police department. Maybe that's why I have this twisted facination with reading up on real life killers from the past. Maybe that's also why I like gruesome and gorey details in the books I read, because if I ever work my dream job, I need to mentally be prepared for things my eyes could never imagine seeing.
So, now that you all know of my past/current morbid interest, let me introduce you to my new interest/obsession. It's the show "Dexter". I've had numerous people tell me that because of my whole interest and dream job, that I should check this show out. Well, I don't have Showtime (I know, I'm old school), so I never bothered watching it. Then my boyfriend got the seasons of the show for me and within about 3 weeks, I've gotten through the first 4 seasons of the show and I am hooked beyond belief. I only have one more season to go before I'm caught up with those who have been watching it for years.
For anyone not familiar with this show, it's about a guy who is a serial killer that only kills other murders and serial killers. Almost like a hero to the victims of these sick bastards; however, no one can know this is who he is because, well let's face it, murder is illegal regardless of who it is. This show seriously is my new obsession and I think I'm going to be sad when I'm up to date and have to wait months for the new season to start.
My old sick morbid interest has been peeked in a new direction, only this time, for the first time, in the fictional direction. This is a new concept for me; however, it's one that I think I can happily add to my list of twisted interests.
I've been reading true crime books about murders and serial killers for years. Hell, I even wrote a long research paper on Ted Bundy when I was in college. Currently my favorite true crime author is Ann Rule. Not only is she an amazing author, but she's exceptionally detailed on every aspect of the cases she writes about. You can almost mentally picture the crime scene, the courtroom, the whole story is just vivid. Not to mention, she mentions things in gruesome detail, which I happen to enjoy. Call me sick if you will, but it's a facination of mine.
Maybe I find the whole concept of murders interesting because my dream job is to be a detective in a homicide unit of a police department. Maybe that's why I have this twisted facination with reading up on real life killers from the past. Maybe that's also why I like gruesome and gorey details in the books I read, because if I ever work my dream job, I need to mentally be prepared for things my eyes could never imagine seeing.
So, now that you all know of my past/current morbid interest, let me introduce you to my new interest/obsession. It's the show "Dexter". I've had numerous people tell me that because of my whole interest and dream job, that I should check this show out. Well, I don't have Showtime (I know, I'm old school), so I never bothered watching it. Then my boyfriend got the seasons of the show for me and within about 3 weeks, I've gotten through the first 4 seasons of the show and I am hooked beyond belief. I only have one more season to go before I'm caught up with those who have been watching it for years.
For anyone not familiar with this show, it's about a guy who is a serial killer that only kills other murders and serial killers. Almost like a hero to the victims of these sick bastards; however, no one can know this is who he is because, well let's face it, murder is illegal regardless of who it is. This show seriously is my new obsession and I think I'm going to be sad when I'm up to date and have to wait months for the new season to start.
My old sick morbid interest has been peeked in a new direction, only this time, for the first time, in the fictional direction. This is a new concept for me; however, it's one that I think I can happily add to my list of twisted interests.
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